December 2008
25 posts
I just want a normal life. that’s all that i’ve asked God for since i was 5. I’ve always noticed that my family was not like other families. my family fought more, looked different, acted different… everything. i’m not asking for anything perfect. just something more normal. i’ve grown up with burdens, depression, and feeling like i’ve always been a...
Chronicles.
Hm, it’s been quiet a few days since I last posted anything on here. I’m finally finished with college this semester. Now I just have to get advised so I can schedule my classes for the next semester. I really want to quit my job. I love the people there, but I’m just not happy with it anymore. I really want change and I want to experience more things than just working at a donut...
wow, haha.
I just realized that both of my blogs so far today have been Blink 182 related. Funny. [=
First Date by Blink 182
Okay, So I know that I’m being schizophrenic with things between me and you. First of all, just know that I don’t like to get attached because I’ve been hurt so many times. I’m scared to let my wall down. I’ve let it down for you more than I have for anyone in the past few years… which is totally out of my comfort zone. Anyway, I’m not sure why exactly but...
I can't do this anymore.
We have to talk. We’re not right. I can’t play with my own heart this way. &you’re definitely not taking advantage of it either. what if things don’t work out?
…I’m not strong enough for this.
edit: I hope you read this first, because I’m scared to start the conversation. It might hurt us both, but it needs to be done.
Don't Forget: Lock the Door.
Tomorrow Jordan and I are hanging out. I’m pretty excited. We barely ever get to hang out anymore. I wonder what we will wind up doing? Maybe we will go see a movie. Or go shopping. Or go bowling. I’m not sure. But, whatever it is I hope we have fun. [= Afterwards or beforehand I plan on going to visit Allison. SO, tomorrow should be a funfilled and busy day… at least for a...
sleepy eyes.
I worked from 4 am until 11 am this morning. I’m kindof tired. We were not 100% busy, but maybe 85%… HAHA. I’m incredibly tired right now. I think I may take a nap… I really should study for my Biology final though… maybe I’ll just nap first so I can have energy for later. Yes, that’s my excuse… I’m going to nap now.
Sometimes.
Sometimes I like to just sit alone in my room and type random blogs to get things off of my chest. That’s basically what these things are used for anyway, so here I go. Lately, my life has been pretty depressing. No, not my life. Me. I’ve been depressed. My reasons are unexplainable even to myself. I think that it is stress. My depressed stage kind of lifted off a little whenever I...
today.
Today was better than most days. I needed a day out. Even if it was just a day out to school.
Lie, Cheat, & Steal: High School Ethics Survey... →
… I remember when I was in high school and my friends and I use to mark the most outrageous answers on these things. I’ve always wondered if some of them were not lying though… I know I wasn’t lying about everything. But I always laughed at it when I chose my answer… So I wouldn’t be looked down upon I suppose. Oh well, we all need to be listened too sometimes...
this song is probably the closest to describing...
Feelings Manifest
I want to go to school for something that I am interested in. I want to get my head in check. I don’t need another person to do that.
I need to relearn how to love myself.
Who has made the biggest impact on you?
My cousin just told me about a project that she is doing in one of her classes at her high school. Basically, it’s an essay about one person that has made an impact on society or something like that. It led me to tonights blog… who has made the biggest impact on me? I’m not sure I can answer this directly or with just one person’s name. In fact, there have been many many...
WatchI can never watch this too many times. It kindof moves me in a way. Maybe it’s just the intensity.
resolutions 2
So, the New Year hasn’t even started yet and I’ve already accomplished one of my resolutions. “Get a new job or get a raise”… My salary got raised from $7 to $7.50 today. [= I’m excited. It may not be a whole lot but it will show.
&now to complete the others…