Sometimes.
Sometimes I like to just sit alone in my room and type random blogs to get things off of my chest. That’s basically what these things are used for anyway, so here I go. Lately, my life has been pretty depressing. No, not my life. Me. I’ve been depressed. My reasons are unexplainable even to myself. I think that it is stress. My depressed stage kind of lifted off a little whenever I went to school today. I have been missing a few classes lately because I have been sick. But, once I was in there catching up on things, I felt more at peace with myself. Also, I spoke to someone on the phone today… someone that I have been trying to avoid now for about 3 months. It made my feel better talking to this person & knowing that they have not forgotten about me. I haven’t forgotten about them, that’s for sure. I miss this person deeply, but I know that we can never be the same again. I don’t really want us to be actually… it was too tough and I’m not that strong. But anyway, like I said, it felt really nice to do things and talk to people that I use to. It made me feel much happier inside and whole again. Work and school is my life now… and it’s not even that much of a life. I feel like traveling. Problem is is that I have no money to travel. I want to learn how to paint. I want to learn how to sew. I want to do all of these things that I always imagine myself doing. But times like these… times when i feel depressed… make me want to stab the world in it’s eyeballs and scream. [kind of morbid… sorry for that] Maybe one day I will be my whole self again… I hope that day comes soon. I’ve been praying for that day… /:
